Why is it so important to you, as the viewer, to understand the logic behind what I do? By requesting or expecting such a statement–an artist statement–you are requesting that I do what I do in the studio on a daily basis. Working in the studio and while writing this statement, I am imposing a structure on something that is not meant to be structured.
Working with primarily found and natural materials, I continually react to the tensions I see within the surface or space that I am working with; I pull out patterns from what is already present–connecting moments such as a chip in an aged piece of wood or a mysterious dark spot on a recycled piece of paper. As I experience the space in depth for the first time, I am creating a map of its imperfections–the things that make each individual object unique and beautiful.
Why must I create this map-like, structured object or space? I have the need to control the things I encounter in life. Just as scientists create a formula or present the results of a study that may or may not lead to the understanding of, say, dark matter or, heck, even how to get to the moon, I study and present the results of many hours of examination and contemplation of each space (and how I relate to it).
I’m sure you get it; I control and impose structures upon things that do not need to be structured. But why? It’s the same reasons you might find an image of a dog, a girl, a jellyfish in the abstracted structure I present to you; the same reason you see those things in the clouds on an overcast day. We, as humans, need to feel as if we understand the world around us and imposing structure allows us to have that feeling; it reduces anxiety and makes us feel more connected with the world around us.
Why must I go on creating art? The answer is simple. Because I must. For my own sanity and well-being…I must. I…need…to understand the universe and my place in it. I make work and study, just as a scientist or an astrologist–if you will, to learn. I create art to learn about the universal through the particular. I study wood grain, imperfections in paper, imperfections in found, natural objects.